Adulthood

"It may sound silly, but the day I realized I could buy any kind of soda I wanted was an exciting day for me ( as an adult)"

I was at MacDonald's that day, after having lunch with Ivy (where she told me about her engagement- Congratulations again, Ivy!) and I was just standing at the counter trying to decided on an iced latte, a low-fat mango frappe or an iced coke. That was probably when I had a moment. I'd read this quote somewhere a while ago, and while I was debating on which drink to get, I realised......... that I was an adult. ( Well, sort of, I'm technically not 21 yet..)

I could actually order anything I wanted for lunch, anything I wanted for dessert. And I could even order DOUBLE DESSERT if I wanted to. I could buy a motorbike, I could watch any movie I wanted, I could go out whenever I wanted, I could do WHATEVER I wanted.

When I was younger, all the way through high school, this was always my ultimate goal, to be able to have that freedom, that autonomy, to do anything I wanted, anytime I wanted.

Funny, I've had that for so long now, and it just came so seamlessly, I never realised I had it. There was no epic moment like in the movies, where something happens to signify the passing on from childhood innocence to adult responsiblity. No uplifting soundtrack, no solemn narration. I just, became.

Without knowing it, I'd become an adult.

And boy, adulthood isn't all it's cracked up to be. Maybe because along the way you learn that every action has its consequences. Eat double dessert, get fat or sick later. Buy anything you want, end up broke or sleeping in a gutter somewhere. Don't study, fail your subjects and graduate late.

God works in funny ways doesn't he?
He made it so that as kids we lack the freedom but go through life with so much innocence. We are able to dream, to hope, to make impossible plans as kids because of this innocence we have. And then even though he gave us this freedom as adults, we don't embrace it fully anyway because of this loss of innocence, because of all these lessons we learn along the way to becoming an adult.

Ah, life.

And just fyi, I got the mango frappe. (It was yummy! Haha)