Death

I work at a job where I see death everyday.

People dying, getting sick, getting admitted into the hospital. This is all part of my job description. I could go into work one day after 3 days of not working and sometimes 2 of my residents will have passed away.

I sometimes say good night to a resident and it crosses my mind that that could be the last time i (or anyone else for that matter) say good night to her. I close the door to their room and think that perhaps this will be the last time i say good night to them. This might be the last time I laugh at their jokes, the last time i give them a hug.

I seldom pause to think about this when I'm working. Maybe because its too depressing and time and energy consuming. But when I'm free and my thoughts are random and plentiful, I begin to realize that just because I work at a job where death is common, I start to treat it so callously. I hear that a resident has passed away, and i go, "Aww, she was a nice lady... Oh well, her time was up anyway, she had a good long life... Oh look at the time, gotta catch my bus now or i'll be late for my movie." And that's it.

What was just another little thing that happened at work today could have been a life-shattering event of another person's life. their loved ones would never see them again, never talk or laugh with them again. We even joke about deaths at work, making fun at its expense. Sometimes even when someone's death is mentioned, a co-worker might even slap her thigh and go, "Finally!" Because this particular resident might have been a fussy and nasty old lady or a very difficult character.

I should always remember that death isn't some kind of joke. It isn't some guy in a long cloak holding a sickle waiting in the corner like we see in comic books.

It's the ceasing of being, the ending of an existence. And nobody should ever treat it like its nothing.

And sometimes I hope that when my time comes, I will have reflected on my life and know that I lived it well, that I did everything I could have possibly done, no regrets, no anger, just peace. I want to remember all these wonderful people who have passed on, and be glad that I met them, entered their lives at the end of their jouneys.

The meaning of life is to give life meaning.

Sad :(

My favouritestestest nurse is retiring soon....
*makes sad face*
I'll miss her.
She's the most resposible nurse I've known and really really nice too.
I wish she didn't have to.
She says she's moving on to the next chapter of her life but damn, I wish she didn't have to.
Oh well. Life's like that.
Sucks though.

Another random post

The 3 of us met up in the city after Evie and I went for a visit to Harbour Town. We met up with Cindy in the city ( who had just bumped into Elysia) and went for lunch in this cafe which we ALWAYS passed by but never went in. Cause our bus stop is right outside. So we thought, we should at least try its food. So we did...

I had the Fisherman's Wharf Basket.... Doesn;t look too impressive doesn;t it.... Not if you're from Kuching and has gone to The Junk and ordered the Fisherman's Basket there...... This on is nothing compared to The Junk's Fisherman Basket....but well, can't complain...
We even met Ying Sze who was on the way to the bus stop home!!! See Evie and Cindy talking through the window to her???? hahaha
But then Cindy and Evie went to the toilet after lunch for so long..... and left me there so boreddddd.... i had nothing to do but take picture after picture.... See, this is a naked/botak tree outside.
And these are the glasses we used to drink our water.
And lookie here! This is a guy standing just outside our window! in the background is our bus stop, E3.... we usually wait for our buses there......

Wll then, the waitress comes up to me and tell me the restaurant closes at 3 pm.... it was 3:05 then..... So she had to get us to leave.... So we paid the bill and left....

A bit embarassed but well fed....

I don't even know why I'm blogging about just some random lunch.... I think i just needed to type something and blog about anything at all just for the sake of blogging.... I think i need something beetter to do with my life..............

Just a random post

Life is weird, isn't it?
I have this friends in my friendster called Ida. She added me cause she had the same name as i do... ( Obviously, as you can see...)
So anyway, i was updating my blog when i saw this comment from her. Her blog address was nearly the same as mine and she'd come to my blog accidentally.... haha....
then her friend did the same thing as well....
Its interesting to know that there's someone out there who has the exact same name as i do haha...
Small world.

We went to watch Prince Caspian last Friday night.
It was AWESOME!!!!! ( This is also aided by the fact that there are 3 HOT hunks in the movie- Skandar Keynes, William Moseley and Ben Barnes- playing Edmund and Peter Pevensie and Prince Caspian)
The action was great, special effects were good, emotions were played very well ( I believe there were tears from yours truly and Ivy at a certain scene of the movie) and of course i just can't bt over how beautiful and absolutely wondrous the soundtrack is!!!
There's a song that plays at the end that had all of our hair standing on end( which is a good thing). Its The Call by Regina Spektor and its gorgeous, absolutely suited for the movie.
Of course, this movie made us a bit sad as this is the last movie with Peter and Susan Pevensie. Well, Susan Pevensie not so much but PEter Pevensie!!! He's so cute and noble!!!! I just don't understand how C.S LEwis could have the heart to let go of the four pevensie siblings.. I prefer them so so so much to the othere 2 characters who will be the main ones in the next few movies (Jill and Eustace) Those 2 are annoying, unlike the 4 pevensies... Sigh, oh well. Ivy decided she's not going to watch any other Narnia sequels as there won't be the 4 Pevensies... I'm tempted to agree... but i probably will watch the next one.... cause Edmund Pevensie is still there!!! wakakaka...

Autumn Colours

I love autumn.
Well, not much point in saying that now cause winter just started.
But who cares, there're still these beautiful leaves around so i'll just pretend its autumn still. :)
Look at those colours, such fiery reds, oranges,and yellows..
Had a great time sticking my shoes in the leaves and taking pics ( Loads of people wanted to know what i was doing... but i think a genius should never have to explain herself... wahahaha!)
But i couldnt resist... I love autumn....
Everyday should be autumn