Ever-changing

I read somewhere once that the only thing that was consistent in life was change.

After almost 20 years of living life, I couldn't agree more.

Life changes so rapidly, without warning at all.

It could be one way today, and totally different the next day. A blink of an eye, and life as you knew it could evolve into something so foreign, so strange yet still familiar.

Everyone has their own dreams, their own attitudes in life, their own thoughts, their own intentions and desires. But yet circumstances draws us together, draws us into a tight web of connections in this seemingly small world at times that makes me marvel at the wonder that is life.

I've had so many people walk in and out of my young life, some I've kept in touch with over the years, some I've tried, some I've totally lost touch with, some I've had to let go even though I never intended or wanted to.

And sometimes I wonder, is it worth it?

Is it worth it to let people in your lives when you know they are going to walk away again, leaving an empty space, leaving you to pick up the broken pieces and try to fill up that hole?

Because despite all her beauty and excitement, life is cruel. She doesn't care, she doesn't care at all. She takes and gives, takes and gives until sometimes there is nothing left at all.

A dear friend is moving out tomorrow. A neighbour and someone who's always been there when I needed anything. ( Except before lunchtime!!) But tomorrow she will be leaving. Not far, but leaving nonetheless. I wish her well, really, I wish I could be like her, letting go of this place we've all grown attached to, but for some reason, I just can't. Not yet.

No more late night talks, no more going down for meals together, no more watching movies together, no more calling each other rooms on our free landlines because we forgot to tell the other a joke or just to talk, no more running next door to get the other to watch a youtube video, no more just being there, in each other's company. I guess I just have to get used to that, just another change life has thrown at me. It was always coming to this anyway.

You know who you are, thanks for giving me an awesome year and a half of living together, thanks for being my friend, thanks for being you, thanks for being irreplaceable. Thank you.
I'll miss you.