Insecurities

How do you rid yourself of insecurities?
How do you just let go of all your flaws and just focus on your virtues?
How do you just turn your cheek away from what people may say about you behind your back and what people may think of you?
How do you just accept yourself for who you are and love that person called you?

I can't do all that.
I can't just let go of all my flaws and focus on my virtues.
I always end up obsessing about my flaws, wishing I was flawless, wishing I was perfect, wishing I was at least contented with myself, with my life.

But everytime I've reached something, accomplished something, I just want more
More, more, always more.
I have to be smarter, funnier, more likable, prettier, richer.
I have to be more popular, more accepted, more everything.

I'm sick and tired.
I'm sick and tired of constantly having to impress
I'm sick and tired of constantly being compared and appear to be lacking
I'm sick and tired of constantly having to hide that side of me I'm so sure nobody will like

That side of me that is shy, that part of me that is a loner
That side of me that is boring, that nobody wants to know,
Why can't I be happy for who I am? For what I have? For what I have done?
Why must it always be a struggle? A race? A fight to the very end to be perfect?
Nobody's perfect, I know that, but that doesn't stop me from trying to be.

I wish I could stop, I wish I could just give up
I wish I could stop being that girl so hidden inside
I wish I could stop being that girl with the terrible hair and the bad skin
I wish I could stop being that girl with the loud mouth and rash decisions
I wish I could stop being that girl who gets so terrified when it comes to meeting new people
Who worries constantly that someone might see through her and see who she really is
Who obssesses constantly that people might not like what they see

I wish I could just stop thinking about what others may think about me
I wish I could just stop obssessing about what people may be saying about me
I wish I could just stop having these insecurities
I wish I could just stop all this
I wish I could just be me, and love me for me.
For nobody else but me.
Me.