Why did you have to go?

Why did you have to go, grandma?
Why did you have to go?
You were just fine the last time I saw you,
A little tired but fine.
And now you’re gone for good,
And I’ll never see you again.
I won’t hear your voice again,
Or hear you pronounce my name wrongly.
I won’t ever be able to touch you again,
Or taste your awesome cooking.
Perhaps I used to complain,
That you used too much salt.
But believe me, grandma
I never tasted better.

I remember how you used to carry me,
When I was sleepy or cranky,
You’d let me just rest on your shoulder awhile,
Sp I could get some rest.
I remember how you used to wake up,
Early in the morning,
You’d sit around and gossip with mom,
Waking everybody up.
I wish I could go back,
I really wish I could,
Then I could be awoken,
By your voice downstairs again.
I remember how you used to bring me lollies,
Whenever you were in town,
And then you’d promised me more,
Before you went back home again.
You never broke your promise, grandma
You always brought me more.
But now you’ve gone to heaven,
Now who’s gonna bring me lollies?

Please don’t just leave me, grandma
I know you might be tired.
But I miss you so much, grandma
And I’d like just one last look at you,
Or a walk, or a chat or anything I can get.
You’re probably peaceful now,
You’re probably with grandpa.
And maybe all I can do now,
Is keep these memories close,
Close to where my heart is,
So I can keep you close there,
Close to me for always, never far away.
I should stop crying now,
And perhaps try and let you go,
But my eyes just keep filling up,
Even though I’ve wiped them.
I hope you’ll miss me too, grandma
Wherever you may be,
I hope you know I love you, grandma
I’m a granddaughter who loves you,
And I always will be.

I remmeber it was the year 2005 right before Christmas when my mum called me to tell me that my granddad had passed away. it came as a shock and i had one of my worst Christmas when we had the funeral on Christmas day. Well, we had our class concert today and it was really fun. we were all hyped up and excited about it. so imagined how i felt when i received a message from my mum telling me my grandma had passed away. my heart just dropped and i felt like just curling up in a corner to cry my heart up.
i can't believe she really is gone. i don't have my grandparents anymore. none of them are around anymore, and that makes me sad. i miss her, my grandma.
i remember how she used to come to town to visit us, and we'd crowd around her while she gave out candies. we usually got a roll of mentos each. i loved it when she came to visit.
what makes it worse is that i had a chance to visit her before i came to Australia. but i didn't take it. I didn't see her. And now she's gone. Right before Christmas too. She's gone and i won't ever have the chance to see her again. ever.
How can life be so full of joy and pain at the saem time?
Why did she have to go?